The older Jack gets the more I’m reminded I have no idea what I’m doing. I am absolutely clueless on how to do this parenting thing. Please tell me I’m not the only one! Last night (and the past 5 nights) he woke up more times than my cloudy 2am mind can remember. Is he hungry? Is his diaper wet? Is he teething? Where’s his nuk? Is he going through a growth spurt? Is the little formula I’m giving him upsetting him? Maybe he’s hungry STILL?
And the bigger questions… Am I being consistent enough? Am I patient enough? Am I enjoying these moments enough? Will he grow up too fast and I miss it? Will I be a good example of Jesus’ love to him?
The more I think about these things, the more I know I need help. God’s help. I need to be spending time with Him; praying to Him, reading His word, and practicing His fruits of the spirit. I am not perfect, I will mess up and for that I’m sorry Jack. I am human and need repentance. But I’m relieved to know I can point Jack to Him to be his perfecter of faith.
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. – Philippians 4:8
I have been reading your blog for a while now, never commented. I love this post! Thank you for the reminder of what is most important-looking to Him for the path in which to take. And no, you are not clueless. Every child is different. I have 3 kids (one is a newborn) and I still ask all those questions. The most important is that you love him so much that you want what is best for him, and you are looking to God to help walk you through this job of raising your precious son. Enjoy every minute of him. He will grow you in ways you didn’t even know you could grow. 🙂
This isto so unlike me to commentdo randomly but Oh how refreshing to hear that I’m not the only one who feels this way. I too have been following your blog since I was referred to it by a friend. I also have a 3 month old and question my parenting skills everyday. How encouraging to know He is there to lead us!
You are not alone. Parenthood is tough. You’re the best mama for Jack…remember that.
Beau said Blake Lea pulled an all-nighter (again) last night, too! You’re not alone!
Amen! Parenting, more than anything else, has driven me to my knees. It’s a bit a ironic since I spent years working in day cares and as a nanny. I just have to trust in God through it all!
I just had my 4th 6 months ago and I STILL wonder what I’m doing. And ask myself the same questions you just did every day! I praise God for his abundance of grace because I’d be utter mess without it!
I’m so glad you posted this. I have been feeling the exact same way and Atticus has been going through the same sleeplessness. I question so much and forget to rest in the peace that God is there to help me. thank you for this lovely reminder!
I’ve been reading for a while and have never commented yet. Love your blog and feel it’s so refreshing. I have a little girl who is almost 11 months old now. We still have late/long nights and nap fights… I feel guilty when she cries or when I’m doing things for myself while she plays alone. I think it’s all categorized into ‘mother’s guilt’. So, basically… I feel ya!!
Those pictures are gorgeous! Really like your blog! 🙂
Aww you guys! I am so relieved to hear I’m not the only one out there that feels like this. Sometimes it’s easy to believe the lie that every other mom has it all figured out and you are the only one that doesn’t. Thanks for your comments – so nice to hear from people I haven’t heard from before!