The older Jack gets the more I’m reminded I have no idea what I’m doing. I am absolutely clueless on how to do this parenting thing. Please tell me I’m not the only one! Last night (and the past 5 nights) he woke up more times than my cloudy 2am mind can remember. Is he hungry? Is his diaper wet? Is he teething? Where’s his nuk? Is he going through a growth spurt? Is the little formula I’m giving him upsetting him? Maybe he’s hungry STILL?
And the bigger questions… Am I being consistent enough? Am I patient enough? Am I enjoying these moments enough? Will he grow up too fast and I miss it? Will I be a good example of Jesus’ love to him?
The more I think about these things, the more I know I need help. God’s help. I need to be spending time with Him; praying to Him, reading His word, and practicing His fruits of the spirit. I am not perfect, I will mess up and for that I’m sorry Jack. I am human and need repentance. But I’m relieved to know I can point Jack to Him to be his perfecter of faith.
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. – Philippians 4:8