I’ve been feeling sentimental lately, especially because I’ve been away from my family in London for work, summer is almost half over, Jack will be heading to Kindergarten (!!) and Liam will go to Preschool in less than 2 months. I wrote a couple letters to the boys that I want them to know as we head into a new season.
Now that you are 5 and are a few months from entering Kindergarten, I sometimes linger by your bed at night and I start to feel a stiffness in my chest. You are so big yet so little. You have so many years in front of you but also you have been here, in my life for 5 years. I don’t remember what it was like not to know you. Yet I feel like there’s so much I have to learn about you and from you. You have so many precious thoughtful things to say and intelligent questions you want to know the answer to and are so full of hope and wonder and curiosity. You recite back to me the things I or your Daddy have taught you and so many things I didn’t know you knew. The tightness in my chest probably will never go away when I think about you growing big, learning, having your own thoughts and opinions and making your way in the world. I just love you so much. Your thoughtfulness is one of the best things about you, Jack. When your brother was asleep on the couch one day, you asked me where the blanket was, promptly went to get it and covered his little body up. That is just one example of the many observant, kind, and thoughtful things you do. That’s just the kind of person you are.
I pray you would always possess the kind of thoughtfulness. I pray also that you would be bold and courageous in this world, Jack. Yet that you would stay tender-hearted, sensitive and empathic to others. I pray you would know Jesus as your personal friend and Savior. Cling to Him when life isn’t fair. I pray you would desire to serve others and grow to be a man of integrity, honesty, faithfulness, and honor. I pray God would give you self-control as you grow, knowing this is the most important thing you will need being a young man. And I pray you would desire and possess Godly truth and wisdom when the world is so confused and needing of truth. I pray the Holy Spirit would guide you always and lead you to a Godly wife that above all loves the Lord.
Jack I hope you always love your brother the way you do now. You are so kind and sweet to him. The way you include him, play with him, and love on him shows me Liam will have someone to look up to. You set such a great example of love to him. I pray you both would be the best of friends as you grow.
I hope you know how much I love you Jack! You were prayed for and hoped for for a long time. Like I always tell you, I cried when I first saw you not because I was sad but because I immediately loved you. You were mine.
I love you more than you will ever know!