Last week we found out our 3rd (and last) IUI was unsuccessful. As you can imagine, there are many feelings involved after waiting and hoping month after month. But the main ones are disappointment and confusion. I was easily sucked down a path of whys; pondering all the reasons it didn’t work and why I wasn’t pregnant. Did we miss the ovulation window somehow? Is my endometriosis to blame? Did I eat too much sugar? Am I too stressed? Is a 3rd baby simply not meant to be? And the big question:
What is the point of all this?
A favorite blogger said this on her instastories:
“Pain is wasted when you don’t share what you’ve learned to help other people.”
I don’t have any magical lessons but I’m sharing anyway. I often come up with so many reasons not to share especially since I already have two kids. However, I’ve heard from so many women going through their own infertility battles and thanking me for sharing mine. It opened my eyes to how many people this actually affects. Infertility sucks but it doesn’t have to be isolating.
We will be having a follow-up doctor’s appointment soon to talk next steps. I’m ready for a break but I can’t say I’m ready to give up. I don’t know if there will be another baby in our lives but I know there must be a purpose. I’m eager to learn what it is. ❤